28.2.11

yesterday is my first time going to 

customer house for doing nail art..

FRUSTED and WORRIED that i will done worse..

But something had spoil my mood..!

i have quarrel with my mum,

and after that my mum quarrel with my dad..

zzzz

that's not wat i wan and i never think will happen such this problem..

anyway,

its pass....shiu....

AND TODAY..

wat a morning

i heard my boss saying something

he answer call

and tell the office gal:

fax the paper for me ar

i wait u..

after he put down the phone

he say:

u din fax me i rogol u later..!

how RUDE HE IS...

I straight ...

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHa...

zzzzzz

My workplace annual dinner at dynasty :)

it was a bored dinner for me

cos all i dunno and...

i sit with the people i dunno at all..

actually i don think to go,

but the boss telling me:

if u din go i din go angpau for u o..!

can how after that..go lo  :(

bluurr..

 

BTW, i had take the time take some ppic with a small gall..

my boss daughter..

  she had a big eyes,fair skin,cherry small lips,messy hair and a pretty nose 

she is active and clever..jus 4 years!

bluurrr..

gals,see camera plss..!!

finally i found that no one she have see the camera when she took with me..zzz

27.1.11

A cold day for me stay in office alone..

tonight will be at LUTONG BARU for doing nail art

frusted now..!!

i am worry that i will do worst later..

no confident

hen sien ehhh......-n-

 now i am waiting for the pasar malam for CNY

but i guess nothing excited inside there gua...just feel wan 38 go see see..zzzz

and this morning my mum told me

this year will back to SIBU for CNY

but it jus go for short days..

seriously,

im quiet lazy..hmmmm

 

23.1.11 ,sunday

a HOT day..

i have going out with my family for finding 

new year clothes..

however,

i am happy..^^

inside car..see my sis behind me..huhu

we are going for breakfast at my older sister coffee shop..

then we are going for MERDEKA MALL

whole day..

i get my RED BAG and CHEONGSAM..

hahahaha..

my HONGHONG beg...nice..wwweee..!!

nice cheongsam..but saw my big tummy..omg.><!

i like the beg very much..and the cheongsam..

i din bought this but another one..haha..!

i with the big财神爷..wish this year he can give me some LUCKY this year..=)

my sister..^^

my nephew and my sister.they pose..cute.!!

webcam with my cute and naughty sister..

she is A NAUGHTY,ACTIVE but CUTE girls..

that is my little SISTER..:)

which teeth more nice to see?

-.<

 

PEACE..!!

 she have a big eyes
and a never stop talking mouth..
sometimes i like to play and disturb her
but i totally don like her crying sound.
it make me angry and spoil my mood.
however,love her..:)

 

21.1.11

一个太阳终于出现的早晨，

我杀了好多蚂蚁

阿密陀佛..!!

我不是故意的，

是你们逼我的哦。=n=

也在这个早晨里，

有个朋友找我说

他失恋了..

当然，

他很伤心

而我也只能给他安慰了

在这里我想给他一个安慰

[哭吧..

好好的发泄..

没有人喜欢失恋的。

你和她是都各了一段时间

她有了另一半也是难免的，

我想她也不想寂寞的。

毕竟也是你的错，

她才离开的..

哭饱了就该停止了

因为她不会在像从前一样在乎你在意你

只有可怜

你流在多眼泪

她也不会就这样回到你的身边

你只能怪你和她的缘分不够

不能一直继续幸福了

把你爱她的心收起来吧

祝福她幸福的和他的另一半生活。。

难熬的，会经过的..:)]

当然，

我也失恋了..

也放下了..

因为知道勉强的爱情是不会幸福的

  泪没在流了，

心也渐渐被自己的安慰

而慢慢不再想念了..

我也一样的，

祝福他能找到真正属于他的另一半

快乐就好了..

那就够了..^^

20.1.11

yesterday i am met with PRICILLA THO..

we are doing something stupid..

we are trying for ALADDIN pant..

now i thinking back,its really funny

she is tall and i am short,we are trying the same pant.

at the same times we came out from fitting room and seeing each other

all people are laughing on me,

its really ugly,and like MARIA WEAR!

but pris still can say seen OK,cos it not look weird than me

owh no..!

funny..!! 

20.01.11 i wanna be happy..=)

eyebag gain..aagghh

19.1.11

我看到了我们的过去，

那真的是个很短，很有趣的过去

你带了很多欢乐给我

虽然..

也带了一些的伤心

或许该说自己不好吧

因为在乎你

所以才有这样的下场

我决定放手一搏去爱你

而我却让你决定了离开我

这真的是很大的玩笑..
都怪我自己

我们爱得没有错

只是缘分只呆一下罢了

它就不让我继续走了

我不能怎样

只能接受了..

倒回去看我们的过去时，

发现时间过很快

如果。。那时。。现在。。1个月多了..

都那么久了，

我已经没力没精神在折磨自己

让自己在不去接受这个现实

  

你给我的过去我记得

直到你幸福了

我会停止

知足才会快乐

你给我那曾经的欢乐

我已经知足了

因为你那疯疯癫癫的笑声

还有你高大的影子

它们都曾经带给我

幸福

和

不用伪装的快乐..

18.1.11

its a fucking bad day for me..

Just an early morning i already been saying been angry?! 

enough soi??

can everything,everyone

stop treat me like this?!

IT'S really NOT FAIR for me at all..

everything not I want and I never think too..

don push all the bad things for me to hanging

please..!

i really cant accept all the stress and unfair..

i can accept for 1 times,2 times,3 times,

but that not mean FOREVER..!!!

16.1.11

一个很早的星期天
一个不够睡得早晨

=n=

一个人过完每一次的星期天

不知不觉才发现我也渐渐变了

已经习惯了一个人

习惯把所有的不好都自己独吞

习惯让自己忙得不可开交

一点都不再想自己有多余的时间

一点都不行...

累坏了就抱怨自己

在用尽方法去发泄

结果受伤是自己

这是命运

我的命运..
无论在那个角色

我都是错的那一个

一直都是

久了，

才发现根本没有人会注意我的好

不管我在努力
我在改变
我在圆满他们的要求
但..

还是没人会满足..

 

I feel sad..

i miss him a lot..

wat the FISH..

what i should do to put down oo....

aaagghhh..!

I miss MCD,

miss double cheese burger RIGHT NOW..

aagghhh 

zzzz..

i think i going to crazy that missing food right now

BUT

now thinking back

i have a long long time din go for fast food

and din go for anywhere.

except for study and work,

that all..

after no more HIM 

now working,

alone in shop..

seeing ppl go in and out from the computer shop

in front me

zzzz...

see handsome boy .hahaha

(anyway,here don have any LENG ZAI let me see)

(*_*") 

AND..

i feel well for this few days..

maybe 

because of YOU

maybe also

because my mind is REFRESH..

and think properly that.

maybe u are not MINE..

i should let u GO from my heart

13.1.11 with my dark colour hair..no more angmo.haha

can i say that i MISS u ..?

10.01.2011

其实，

我要的只是一个..

很小很小的幸福

那就真的够了

8.1.2011..just finish done my hair..=).

9.1.2011

it really was a tired sunday..

yeaterday night sleep with my SUN

my 3years old nephew

midnight..2.15am

i heard my nephew sound

my 1st mind is

CHARM,HE WAN EN EN..

quickly brang him go toilet with blur mind

still need sit at outside wait him

walao eh..

midnight still need wake up be maria help baby wash ass..

dunno wan say wat liao..

agghh..=(

yesterday I received a calling from cousin

he asking me:

why a short relationship u also cant put down?

how u can love him love till like this o?

YES

i cant.=(

because i am too sturborn

I LOVE HIM

i thought he wont leave me

thought i wont alone anymore

i got him

i thought we will continue our LOVE day to day

so from the first,

i use all my real heart to love him

and try to prove that I LOVE HIM

but i wrong

cos all not so easy as i think

just know that  I LOVE him only is no enough 

I MISS HIM

really really MISS everything

although it jus a short memory

but it sweet and hard to forget it

the most funny and unforget memory betwwen us is

we LANGGAR tree on night when i almost reach home

zzzz....

and now

i try to get more and more time to put down everything

take all my time to do everything that i unlike

to let the time go ahead 

to let me no time to miss him

cos

HE no love me anymore

HE had give up

HE had doing the last decision that i cant accept

but...

what I can do although i don wan to let him go?

I just know everything cant force

so I accept wat he want

just..

I still MISS him so much

I really feel want to know how he can give up it easily

happy back easily

cos I hope I can too..

BUT

from u

i learn something

that is

DARE TO TAKE IT UP

THEN HAVE TO DARE TO PUT IT DOWN

 thank you BEI..!

i jus can use my time with this..and i found that my eyebag.....zzzzzz

给我多几分钟的时间怀旧一下下好吗？

我好想你

到这一刻都好想

只是那短短几个礼拜的爱情

我却用了整整的心

 或许该说是我想的太美

以为我们会一直一直走下去

你给我的回忆不多

但那却可以让我记在心里

第一次见你

是你拿巧克力给我的时候

很好笑的

袋子和里面的东西差很远

zzzz

过后的时间

我开始习惯有你的信息有你的电话

每个早上有你的早安

还有...

习惯了你那恐怖的笑声

渐渐的

认识了你的家人

觉得他们

很可爱

很温馨

很随和

再渐渐的

自己掉进了这个圈套了

 喜欢你

没想到的是

你不要我了

那么轻易的..

说不要就不要

说放就放

说真的

我一点都不想

因为我爱你了

我也不行像你一样

说放就可以直接不要

那时..

你告诉我

你不想我不开心

我只想说：

我没有委屈

因为我对你认真到了极限

所以

我就安慰自己让你静静先吧

时间一直过去

我才慢慢发现

我错了

因为你很开心

很快乐的在过着没有我的生活

才知道是我太高估自己了

后来也听到了人家说：
我太依赖你了
我不知道要用什么方式回应
只知道
我真的尽力了

现在我只知道
你过得很快乐
只有我那么傻的
在那里伤心干嘛
也不知道你哪里好
自己会爱你
甚至多过爱自己

我决定不再缠住你了
把你的快乐都还你
想你时有你给我的枕头陪我

很傻瓜厚..

好了
想你到这里
我真的不行再干涉你的一切
在干涉下去你会讨厌我的

谢谢你在那段时间用心爱过我
虽然只是那一下
但我知足了
你快乐那是我要的
我现在只希望
你这辈子都不要知道
我还是爱你
好爱好爱...
因为
我怕你会讨厌我..

I saw that

he is happy and enjoy with his life RIGHT now

and me

i am stupid that

angry myself

BECAUSE 

I AM useless that

still missing the past

MISSING HIM VERY MUCH 

what i do this for?

let people see how i am stupid

 how funny of me

HAHAHAHAHA

HE IS HAPPY

i know this

and it's time to put down

should give up all

HE HAPPY THAT REALLY ENOUGH FOR ME

 

我不能再像从前一样

为我们的明天疯狂